i play movies in my head when i walk to the train; all about love, or skateboarding; or, you know, horror
- someone falls in love with a woman with ocd and has an unbelievable amount of patience and understanding for her. outsiders think she is crazy. he loves her, she doesn’t trust him. c’est la vie.
- two people fall in love with a fear of sex; related to traumatic experiences, but have the most intimate encounters nonetheless.
- two people fall in love but their lack of self esteem and anxiety makes it difficult to realize that they respect and admire each other; instead, they both recoil and avoid the other; seeming dismissive but acting in self-preservation. this is frustrating as nothing ever comes of it — but perfectly believable, if you hate yourself.
- skateboarding through an empty philadelphia with the cramps as a soundtrack; again, i don’t skate. never have i ever.
- things are as dark as a shitty bar and my body floats along, disconnected from everyone else. i find my way alone into the woods and never come back.
- with “american nightmare” by the misfits as a soundtrack, the opening credits for a movie about a supernatural, female serial killer, ‘cause, i guess i’m kinda dark. she only kills killers and torturers with like, mind powers, or whatever. it’s still gruesome, don’t worry.
- i’m v. interested in how what i’m listening to affects what i’m seeing. i suppose the misfits is totally equated to horror since danzig is a pale, horrifying, misogynist freak — which is why i like the idea of a female killa to that soundtrack.
- i like the idea of justice and unrequited love. separately.
The philosopher Søren Kierkegaard, in The Concept of Anxiety, described anxiety or dread associated with the “dizziness of freedom” and suggested the possibility for positive resolution of anxiety through the self-conscious exercise of responsibility and choosing. In Art and Artist (1932), the psychologist Otto Rank wrote that the psychological trauma of birth was the pre-eminent human symbol of existential anxiety and encompasses the creative person’s simultaneous fear of – and desire for – separation, individuation and differentiation.